Saturday, December 31, 2011
Friday, December 30, 2011
Right place, wrong time or wrong place, right time?
There are moments when you feel that this could be right, just not now.
Then there are moments when you realise it's wrong, which then makes it the right time.
Tick.. tick..
Something clicks over. Your heart catches up to your head.
Then there are moments when you realise it's wrong, which then makes it the right time.
Tick.. tick..
Something clicks over. Your heart catches up to your head.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
To my favourite old scrooge..
" New years is a time to stop and reflect on the year that's gone by. To remember both our triumphs and missteps, our promises made and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures or closed ourselves down in fear of them. It's about another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. Embrace it and celebrate it. "
Stop scrooging around and make the most of what could be. It's a fresh start if you make it one.
Stop scrooging around and make the most of what could be. It's a fresh start if you make it one.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Stand still.
When you feel like your world should stop, sometimes the best thing for you is that it keeps spinning.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
empty.
Losing something you never knew, never loved and never wanted leaves an emptiness in you that you never knew was filled in the first place.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Stupidity and Fade outs.
A good friend told me that heartbreak is the second hardest thing to overcome - addiction being the first.
That death is easier to deal with because you have closure, where as when you're heartbroken, you're just left hurting and not sure why. My Dad told me once, after he and my mum split, that it takes half the time that you were together to get over someone and during that period, you'll go through the 7 stages of grief.
Shock and denial, pain and guilt, anger and bargaining, reflection and loneliness, the upward turn, reconstruction, acceptance and hope.
Labelling steps to grief seems stupid, But i guess when you can see it in front of you and be given a time frame, its almost calming to see it put out on paper with a timeline. Giving you a sense of the end and a count down for when it will get better. But where is the fade out stage, or the stupidity stage?
Maybe its part of the other stages, but there seems to come a time that you just feel so overwhelmingly stupid. Like all you want to do is smash your head against the wall with a massive what the fuck are you doing. When what you're feeling at the time seems to be so irrational and pointless because you're the only one that's not okay. You feel like you should be okay now, you're weak for still caring and weak for still hurting. When you wish you could take back everything you've said since the moment they left you. Re-do, rewind and relive.
Fade out. The time you realise you don't remember what it feels like. You no longer remember what it feels like to be with them, you don't remember how they smell, how they sound, their touch, you just know that you miss it. I think that hurts more than anything. I'm hoping this phase sets in just before the upward turn.
That death is easier to deal with because you have closure, where as when you're heartbroken, you're just left hurting and not sure why. My Dad told me once, after he and my mum split, that it takes half the time that you were together to get over someone and during that period, you'll go through the 7 stages of grief.
Shock and denial, pain and guilt, anger and bargaining, reflection and loneliness, the upward turn, reconstruction, acceptance and hope.
Labelling steps to grief seems stupid, But i guess when you can see it in front of you and be given a time frame, its almost calming to see it put out on paper with a timeline. Giving you a sense of the end and a count down for when it will get better. But where is the fade out stage, or the stupidity stage?
Maybe its part of the other stages, but there seems to come a time that you just feel so overwhelmingly stupid. Like all you want to do is smash your head against the wall with a massive what the fuck are you doing. When what you're feeling at the time seems to be so irrational and pointless because you're the only one that's not okay. You feel like you should be okay now, you're weak for still caring and weak for still hurting. When you wish you could take back everything you've said since the moment they left you. Re-do, rewind and relive.
Fade out. The time you realise you don't remember what it feels like. You no longer remember what it feels like to be with them, you don't remember how they smell, how they sound, their touch, you just know that you miss it. I think that hurts more than anything. I'm hoping this phase sets in just before the upward turn.
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