Woop Woop

That is what i wish i was saying right now. The use of 'Woop Woop' would indicate that something super fun, exciting and un-work-like is occuring. No such luck.

Three of a Kind

Ryan

Ry is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. It's the little things in life that really make a difference, and he's so got that down pat!

Ryan, you are the most supportive person in my life and i can always count on you to be 100 per cent honest with me, regardless of whether you think im going to like it or not. I love and appreciate how you will take time out to sit down and work through with me the things im not coping with and that i can't quite get a handle on. The little things you do like checking to see if i got to work okay and bringing me home a Crunchie when you do the shopping and even bigger things like organising a birthday suprise and present before you went away because you knew you were missing it rather than something half hearted a week later - you still made my day even from Bali - the nicknames you give me and the goofy things you do to make me smile just make me love you even more. Sometimes it sort of feels like Blink 182's Josie, just the other way round. Ryan, you're the best and make my world such a better place.

Holly

We’ve been friends ages, since year 5. Numbers make it seem like it’s been such a long time but it certainly doesn’t feel like it. You’ve always been the one I come to with (what feels like) my major life decisions. Whether it feels like my world is falling apart, I simply want to blab about something or have goss that I just found out in my drunken state, you’re always there to say ‘ohh!’ with just the right tone for the situation at ridiculous times in the morning when I’ve bumped into someone from school while I’m out and you’re always there with a shoulder to cry on and a listening ear when life’s getting me down.
We've grown together, we've learnt together, we've played together, we've cried together and we’re still there for each other. Always. You’re the sort of friend that you don’t need to speak to. The sort of best friend that just being around you makes everything better.
Through thick and thin. From down the road, the other side of town and the other side of the country. I will always be there for you, whenever you need me. Any time, any day - I'm only one call away.

Isami

You're like a big brother. Just a super cool one that i love being around. I hate that Canada has stolen you away, yet again. And i hate even more that when you finally do come home, it wont be my my home. I miss you every single day.

The Sea

The soundtrack of my morning.
Mellowed it out enough to make it bearable, I swear even the wind didnt feel as cold while this was playing.

Thank you, Van She.

There is no 'I' in team

"I started something I couldn't finish

And if we go down,

We go down together

Best friends means
Well best friends means.."

 

When you're in a relationship, whether its romantic or platonic, sometimes remembering that there is no 'I' in team is a really hard thing to do.
When its something that is effecting you both emotionally, physically and mentally, its so hard to take a step back and pull yourself out of the picture to focus on how the other's coping and dealing with it and how you might have to adjust to make it a little bit easier for the other.
It's so easy to focus on what you need and how you need to do it without taking into account just how it effects the people you love, most of the time its so rediculously unintentional that when its pointed out its a shock that's usually followed with a really yuck feeling of guilt.
But then there are other times i guess, when doing what you need and want without taking into consideration how it effects others is okay. I mean this in the sense of how moving interstate and overseas will effect your friends. And family i suppose. Families are there to provide love and support in all circumstances and situations whether they agree with them or not. It means being there with the same love and support when your world comes tumbling down and a helping hand and a warm cuddle when you rebuild it. And friends, true friends, are the family you chose and are there to do the same. And i guess truely being part of a family means taking yourself and all selfishness out of the equation for the benefit and happiness of another member.
You do what you have to do to make it okay. And at the end of the day, if we go down - we go down together.

New Bag

New handbags are like a fresh start.
A clean slate to leave all past mishandling, overfilling, dragging and throwing behind and a new promise to utilise all available compartments and pockets and fill with only the absolute necessities.
This is the promise that every girl makes and breaks for herself.

Happy Birthday to Me

Birthday's have always been my favourite celebration.
I love when you're little and you're that excited that you can't sleep for days before and you wake up so early and everything is just so exciting. Then you go to school and get to have a special show and tell of your birthday presents and everyone sings. That used to be the best.

When i was little, Mum used to do these suprises for me and my sister. She used to say that the Birthday Fairies did it. Every brithday we'd get a little extra suprise from them. One year, i've got no idea how she did it, but she turned my entire bedroom into a sea theme without me knowing. I woke up, and it had changed. I had waves of satin draping from my ceiling, shells and starfish all over my walls and an awesome quilt cover. Birthdays are awesome.

This year im celebrating the end of my teenage years and the start of my body going down hill.
I hate growing up and i hated the thought that i was going to have to be grown up enough to wake up and have my birthday by myself. But, for someone who was so terrified of spending it on her own, i've realised that i have so so many wonderful and amazing friends and people in my life that, even from Bali and at 4.22 in the morning, have really made today a truely awesome and special birthday. 

Thank you to you all and I love you from the absolute bottom of my heart. 

Awesome.

Music Gets the Best of Me

Music is a wonderful, wonderful thing.

It's so rare to have something delight all of your senses at one time.

It is the one thing in the world that no one should have to live without.

I really don't understand people that can say they don't like and enjoy music.

One song can lift or drop your heart and soul, change and emphasize your mood, make you cry, make you laugh, bring up memories, help you imagine new ones sometimes even to the extend that you can smell and feel them. Music is a truely amazing thing. Whether you're successful and make it big, muck around on a guitar at home or sit on a curb side and play the bongo drums, to have the talent to create such an amazing thing is definately a gift that no one should ever over look.

Time

Is taking forever today.

Why is it that when you want to savour the moment, time goes too quickly yet, when you want your day to be over, it feels like it's a never ending day?

Back at work..

TEN HOW'S:

How did you get one of your scars?
When i had my appendix out. It's a tiny little cute one in the inside of my belly button.

How did you celebrate your last birthday?
Hung over as hell.
I also managed to successfully loose my car in the middle of the Willunga markets..  

How are you feeling at this moment?
Pretty average, hey. Big weekend. Definately needed one more day to recover.

How did your night go last night?
Pretty good. Four course meal for tea then home to my nice clean comfy bed.
Had some awesome oysters entre!

How did you do in high school?
Also pretty good. A's and B's with a good TER.
How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
The underneath one i purchased in the City, the other i purchased from Aldinga Shopping Centre in year 9.. Hah!
How often do you see ur best friend?
Not often enough. Ones a busy mummy, the other its hard cause of work even though we live together, and the other is overseas. Definately need to make more of an effort for my housemate though.

How much money did you spend last month?
TOO MUCH!

How old do you want to be when you get married?
I'd say.. Late 20's? If i've got the right one then?

How old will you be at your next birthday?
20! Hoorah!

 NINE WHAT'S:
Your mothers name?
Cathryn

What did you do last weekend?
We went to the Pendulum after party to see Shock1 on friday night. Was definately a good night! The rest of the weekend was spent on the couch watching the lamest movies we could find. Actually, one good movie that we stumbled across by accident was Repo Men with Jude Law in it. Such a good movie! Had a killer twist too, just the way i like it!
What is the most important part of your life?
Play time.
What would you rather be doing?
Showering and eating tea. Wish i wasn't so lazy and this bean bag wasn't so comfy. 

What did you last cry over?
Haha - Richard took my glow stick.
What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
His hand on my forehead.
What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
Heart, mind, soul.

What are you worried about?
Moving. Super excited but super worried at the same time.
What did you have for breakfast?
A health shake.. followed by half a packet of milko's.. Good start!

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Yes.

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Multiple times.

Have you ever been out of the country?
No. Which is probably the most disappointing part of my life.

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Alot. you know those times when you say something and you're just like.. serious? i just said that?
Walking into things and falling over happens often when you're me. Like the time at work when i was there by myself and walked straight into a rack and sent the two mannequins flying that i was carrying and went A over T when there was about 10 customers in the store? Or that time at the Pizza Bar after almond blossom when again, i tripped, and slid halfway down the store with my legs in the air and my dress around my ears only to land infront of the one person i did not want to land infront of that day.

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Yep. But i've been lucky with my friends and it's only happened once when we were young. Never the less, i am no longer friends with that person.

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
Yes.
Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
By like, a few months? But no one significantly younger than me.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
I love days like that! And i love books that intrigue you that much to allow you to have days like that even more!

SEVEN WHO’S:
Who was the last person you saw?
Kayleigh at Reception before i went home.

Who was the last person you texted?
Holly, to see how she's feeling.
Who was the last person you hungout with?
Ryan and Adam
Who was the last person to call you?
Ryan

Who did you last hug?
Ryan this morning before he went to work.

Who is the last person who texted you?
Holly, to tell me she's feeling fine.
Who was the las person you said "i love you" to?
Mumma

SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?
Willunga; Morphett Vale; Canada

Where did you last go?
To the Shops to get some eggs and bacon

Where did you last hang out?
On the couch

Where do you go to school?
Used to go to Willunga High
Where is your favorite place to be?
Near the water
Where did you sleep last night?
In my bed

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
Do you like someone right now?
Love

Do you think anyone likes you?
Love

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Everytime i look in the mirror

Do you know the muffin man?
The muffin man?

Does the future scare you?
It's terrifying. I hate not knowing how it's going to turn out.

FOUR WHY’S:
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
They're soul mates. There are so many reasons. They're just gonna be there forever you know?
Why did you start a blog?
I thought it might be a good way to like, ease back into writing.
Why did your parents give you the name you have?
Mum said there used to be a girl on Days of Our Lives or something called Jessica (She watched ALOT of television while she was pregnant with me) and my middle name is my Nanna's name

Why are you doing this survey?
Cause i'm terribly bored and have nothing i'd like to write about.
 THREE IF’S:
If you could have one super power what would it be??
Teleportation.. ? Is that the word? Where you can be in one place then teleport to another? Yeah? If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
Used to want to, but now i'd have to say no.
If u were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
A killer mix cd

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
Not now.
Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
Definately. If shaving my head was going to save them of course i would. Hair grows back, loved ones don't.
 ONE LAST QUESTION
Are you happy with your life right now?Super Happy :)

i want i want i want

To look like this.
In this dress.
With this hair.


Sending all my love, positive thoughts, pleases and thank you's to the Universe. Just incase it decides to throw some luck in the hair, wardrobe, money and fame departments my way.

Little Suprises

I have the best boyfriend ever

Yes, yes i do :)

♥ ♥ ♥

Lock it in!

Dont you love how you fit so snuggley and perfectly in the arms of that special someone and it feels so perfect?

It's the best!

Welcome to the World

Little Lukah Nightingale
22.10.10
♥ ♥ ♥

Julie? Josie? John?

Jessica.

J is for Jessica.

Who the shit is Jessica?

Who am i?

I often feel this question would be better answered by someone else for i, Jessica, don't have the foggiest idea. But apparently the age old question of 'who am i?' is something that can only be answered by one person. The person who's asking it.

I'm not so sure i quite understand how it is that people answer this for themselves. People who are so sure of themselves, of the sort of person they are, so sure of what they want and how they go about things. The way they speak, write, handle themselves and their emotions. The way they dress and with whom and how they socialise and interact with the world. Each of these little things defines who we are, but so many of these change (obviously topic of the week) and are influenced by others and little things that we don't even realise we're taking note of, so how is it that we can ever truly know who we are?

I wonder if there's a little moment that it just sort of clicks?

This Charming Man

Why pamper lifes complexities
when the leather runs smooth
on the passenger seat?

I would go out tonight
but i havent got a stitch to wear.
This man said, 'it's gruesome that someone so handsome should care'

A jumped up pantry boy
who never knew his place
He said, 'return the ring'
He knows so much about these things
He knows so much about these things.

Waking up with The Smiths rolling around in my brain is usually a sign of a good day.
Today it feels like its the begining to a puzzling day though.

Growing up.

Gowing up is the pits.



Knowing you have no control over what is happening around you and that everything is changing, regardless of how you feel about them, is a really unsettling feeling.
Daunting.

Within the next few months, two of my best friends will be becoming mothers. The third is situated halfway across the world and the fourth, as hard as he tries, is presently off limits.

The one thing i have control over in my life is what i do. I've made the decision for myself but now, even that is daunting. The one thing i was looking forward to the most is turning back into the one thing scaring me the most. Massive, massive change.

I woke up this morning to the realisation that nothing will ever be the same again.

Any day now there will be a beautiful little baby boy entering into my life. Not mine, but i will no doubt feel and care about him as strongly as i would my own. As exciting as that is, it leaves me with an unusual feeling knowing that after eleven years of friendship, it will never be just us again. Then i opened my internet to find an e-mail from Canada only to further my unusual feeling. Not knowing when i'll see him next is the worst feeling in the world. The next time he comes home, it will no longer be my home. There will be no more hungover sushi rendezvous, no more lunch time catch ups. Its funny how life can bring two people together so quickly and equally pull them appart from each other in a heartbeat.

There is nothing permanent except change - Heraclitus

Change is a marvelous and scary thing. Something to be embraced. Something that every single human being partakes in. Something that can be so exciting and so terifying at the same time.

An essential part of the human existance and a key player in life's journey.
What is meant to be will be.

People will enter and disappear from your life, leaving heartprints and heartaches.

Change is something every being on this planet endures and expects, so why is it that change is something that so many of us struggle to accept?

thx thx thx

Dear Leah,

Thank you for making my dismal morning at work so much more of a joy by stumbling across your blog. Your little notes make me giggle and smile on the inside.

Love,

Jess

______________________________

I caught the bus and stumbled my way to work this morning feeling cold and sleepy, with my face looking like a pizza and my hair looking like i'd been dragged behind the bus instead of seated safely inside it. Feeling miserable and somewhat sorry for my disheveled self, i realised i owed the universe 5 days worth of gratefulness. That's when i stumbled across lovely Leah's blog, Thx Thx Thx: a thank you note a day.

Her gorgeous sense of humor and imagination absolutely delights me! Everyday she writes a little thank you note, to her well-gotten bruises that look like misshapen temporary tattoos but a whole lot cooler and to her tears for staying at bay this week. I absolutely, positively LOVE this lady.
http://thxthxthx.com/

So, for saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday and wednesday:
1. For greg making us croissants at our early morning staff meeting because he knows how none of us cope with mornings
2. For not having to deal with the boy that came rushing to holly and lewis for cuddles even though they barely know him
3. For having some awesome friends that make nights out the best, even though it's cold and rainy and i'm a sook
4. For having someone to stay up and talk shit with all night while he make me cups of tea
5. For having the same awesome friends there when i needed them
6. For having someone make sure i'm okay even though i'm not the one everyone's worried about
7. My retainer, for keeping my teeth nice and straight, regardless of how much you hurt and smell in the mornings
8. For finally realising that brands are stupid and the rediculously expensive zebra jumper i brought was a waste of money because, even though it says bardot on the tag, i still look like a zebra and it doesn't keep me warm at all
9. For take-away stores being open late on a monday so i didn't have to cook when i was tired
10. For Charlie choosing to sit on my feet instead of anyone elses because he knows how much i like it
11. For the people that gave alex and mum a job at pooraka so i can see them next week
12. For having an understanding Dad and Stepmum who love me even though im tired and spend my time sleeping instead of driving to Clarendon
13. That Sara-lee makes the best chocolate pudding and it's only $6 for an entire box of it
14. For my will power - you've done me proud this week
15. For the encouragement of my boyfriend, who gulps down all his dinner and tells me it was fabulous, even though we both know it tasted like crap

3 Things.

Due to my rediculous boredom at work today, it looks as though i'll get plenty of writing practice in.
As it turns out, i'm actually a little over listening to people crap on about everything thats so shit in their lives. People overlook the little things that you never truely appreciate until they're gone.

It truely grinds my gears.

So, in retaliation, i've decided that everyday i'm going to list three things that i am grateful for to ensure i can't lose sight of the things in life that truely matter.

Starting now.
Friday; 30 July 2010
1. Waking up next to someone i love
2. Having that little bit of sunshine before the rain on my lunch break
3. That it's Friday

Snaps is the name of the game.

For almost a year now, i've been comtemplating becoming a blogger.
After being out of school for two years and now starting uni to study journalism, i thought i could ease myself back into writing before i hit the wall completely. Turns out i was wrong.

For two days now i've been trying to write a post. For two days, the only thing that comes into my mind when i sit infront of the computer, is Snaps. The only words that are rolling around in my head are, 'Snaps is the name of the game, the name of the game is Snaps'. Have i completely lost my knack for writing? Is this seriously what two years of not puting pen to paper does to you? What a terrible idea that was.